do you remember the first time you were called annoying?
how your breath stopped short in your chest
the way the light drained from your eyes, though you knew your cheeks were ablaze
the way your throat tightened as you tried to form an argument that got lost on your tongue.
your eyes never left the floor that day.
you were 13.
you’re 20 now, and i still see the light fade from your eyes when you talk about your interests for “too long,”
apologies littering every other sentence,
words trailing off a cliff you haven’t jumped from in 7 years.
i could listen to you forever, though i know speaking for more than 3 uninterrupted minutes makes you anxious.
all i want you to know is that you deserve to be heard
for 3 minutes
for 10 minutes
for 2 hours
there will be people who cannot handle your grace, your beauty, your wisdom, your heart;
mostly because they can’t handle their own.
but you will never be
and have never been
”—"this started as something completely different, but everything comes back to you, doesn’t it?" - tyler ford (via tylerthelatteboy)
"Introduction: When the Sun card shows for you, even when reversed, it’s still a sign that soon you are likely to find yourself feeling more “free” than you have in a while - maybe years. However, in reverse, there is much less clarity to this “freedom,” and you may have to work harder to bring the “freedom,” about. Still, this is an excellent and important time to experience different things, things which are out of your usual routines. The Sun is about vitality, freedom, joy, and self-expression.
General: Things in general are very likely to be going very well for you, even when you draw the reversed Sun. When this card is reversed, it’s particularly important for you to make an effort to literally count, and stay focused on, your “blessings.” No matter who you are, or what is wrong in your life, you undoubtedly have things to be thankful and grateful for. Stay mindful of these thngs, and you will bring more blessings into your life. This is a great time to socialize, to meet new people, and to get out and about.”
“Valid during many months: During this time most people have to deal with feelings of doubt, discouragement and inadequacy. Also you may find yourself unpleasantly confronted by the consequences of past actions that you hoped would simply go away. The challenge is to confront them without caving in and feeling hopeless. Now you will question whether you are doing what you should with your life. The temptation is to decide that you are not, and to give up. Others may try to convince you that you are on the wrong course and give you very demoralizing advice. Of course, you may in fact be wrong in some area, and there you should change course. But you must avoid the tendency to cave in. Evaluate what you are doing in your own terms, not someone else’s, and decide whether you are acting properly in various matters.”—
Transit selected for today:
Mars square Neptune, activity period mid-January 2014 until beginning of July 2014
“We are fated, but we are meant to part. We have a meaningful journey to take together, but we must ultimately be alone. Our lives are silly and sublime at once. We have the ultimate intimacy side by side with the knowledge of ultimate separateness. We grasp for the handrail, and find nothing to hold on to. We fall, and find the world.”—The Composite Chart and the 12th House